逆水行舟

好久没回来了，因为总是没有像下笔的感觉。太对不起我的部落格了😣😣  

现在四月了，中六结束了，每个人各忙各自的事情，像我一样从来没有什么生活目标的，怎么办呢？这段工作的日子里，只让我被我自己看得更清楚。没什么志愿就算了，还发现自己越来越差劲，不管去到哪里工作，都是皱着眉回家，成天就唉声叹气。我严重怀疑自己的社交能力与工作能力，再加上性格上的扭曲，为什么我不再看到明日的美好？一个大女孩最珍贵的这几年难道我就要这样的过吗？我挣扎，却再也找不到她所谓的那个美好善良的自己。我不是为了变得更好才改变的吗？为什么到最后却在听你们怀念以前的我？大概最荒谬的是，我也想不到你们该喜欢现在的我的理由。看着她越来越光亮耀眼，再看看褪色的自己，该如何是好？☔️

School Reopening

At 6 am, my alarm rang. It's still the same  bed, same time, same routine as brushed teeth, bathed, changed clothes, had my oat meal breakfast, tied my hair and went to school. But there were some changes here and there. The clothes were not school uniform anymore, my hair was tied with some colourful ribbon, not just blue black or white anymore, the heels i wore, wasnt the white colour school shoes anymore and the school i went,  not SMK TD anymore. 

There was a few seconds, just a few, I thought I was still going to my Form6. Inthe bathroom, memories of old hard time of Form6 keep haunting me. How good if there was Form7 or more and more, I thought.  

In the classroom, I was the one who stand in front of the classroom and givespeech ans I found that it's actually really hard for someone new like me to hold the situation. They talked, they laughed, they ran and they played. I wanted to tell them, kids dont complain school reopening, you will regtret it one day. Maybe you dont know, cuz you wasnt me. Appreciate your deskmates and classmates, you will miss them so much so much that you even want to go back to school after you graduate. The impact they give you might not be something you can imagine of. 

Aikkk, kids, you will know it someday, kids. 

Post Form Six Life

Form 6 life ends. Sorry for writing late. Feel sad for that. But dont be emo, I can start working and earning money to buy new clothes and many other things, right? Yeaa. Yesss I start working already, but before thaattt, I went Melaka with my baby girlsss haha! Great days spent with them. It's been two years we hadnt went for trip together. That two days were really awesome with Hoong Hoong's William. He is a really good guy. The best thing is he can mix with us. Good Good, I give him a pass .. nono, is An A+, 4.0 ohh! He willing to bring us walk long distance to find good food, he treated us ohh bagus! !! Photos are in my phone, arghh so sad but never mind, I will upload them later.

Now my work, I dont really like honestly, maybe it's because I dont have them with me. But there are other reasons too of course. Haizz It's okay cuz Im planning to change to other jobs like..bring a teacher? Im going for interview next week. I wish I can get that job, just to try out different type of jobs, not bad too yea. Oh yes, there are still things that make me feel better everyday. Like a good break everyday and a good off day every week. Today is off but it's not a really good one. There are a few reasons but forget about it, one hour more it will be my yesterday forever, so dont care so much, tomorrow will be a good day kayyy?

Christmas is near! What are you planning to do on the eve and Christmas day? Must do some good stuff on the two daysss. Me? Oh Im working. T.T haiz. So sad so sad so sad, really really. Oh no dont I cant complain anymore, I dont want. Anyway, I wish everyone will have a good Christmas day with your love one. And I wish I will be satisfied with my day, everyday, no matter what happen or nothing happen at all. 
Be happy.
Never stop smiling. 
I love your smile.
Use your smile to change the world. Don't let the world change your smile

My Water Balloon Koko Day

Today was Taman Dasa Hari Koko 2014 and the marching competition.

Marching competition was like ughh I dont feel like talking about it. In summary we lost (I know it's the same every year, but still.. you know). To all the members, dont be so sad, We still have chances right, let Ernie fight back for our pride next year, dont worry!

Koko dayyyy, my gang came and now is yum cha-ing but im still here because I have tuition later, howww saad. In total I got 4 outing today but I have rejected all just because of my tuition. I dont know since when I become so "study type, kononnya haha). 

So this year I had a busy koko day because our class made a game - water ballllooon~ My pandusss promised to play as well as my gang. But just now was sooo busy and luan sui made my girls all waited for like one hour more. Im so sorry girls, and I know we didnt provide enough water but as you can see I was running up and down to get water non-stop already, anyway still Im so sorry about that. So when it's my gang's turn, upper sixes and my gang vs lower sixes, I got so high I want to get wet get wet and shouted so loud. Now I sore throat. Ahaha I cannot control my voice when I get excited haha.

Overall I think we have earn some money, I hope so, and feel so happy that my pandus and my gang supported us.

Thank you very much.

The Color Run Malaysia

Im so excited so excited so excited very very excited man!!! I was one of the volunteers for The Color Run Malaysiaaaaaa wohoo.

You dont know why Im so excited. The story is like that. Before Color Run came to Malaysia, Yen and I already talking about it and this year they really came to Malaysia. I was so highper asking the world ready to register for it But thennnn, I was like a poked balloon when I saw the price. So expensive yoooo. Then after that I didnt think of that event anymore. 

Few days before, my friend told me that her sister going to volunteer. I ignited again. But then I thought they got enough volunteers already. I put out again. But then last night someone suddenly called me and asked whether I'll be free today. For what? They still need volunteers!!!! oh oh I need to wake up at 3am Oh no it's okayyyyy. So I happily went to work today for free. Imma a happy girl~

Honestly that was so fun, but we all became sooo red hahaha We were excited and the participants were even highper. We jumped when we threw the powder to people following the beat of the loud music hoho If you werent there you wont know. It's okayyy Just imagine~! There the pictures. 

We were in the red zone, everyone was red!!! 

Da chick

Another busy school holiday! We have given too much homework that we cant really say it's an holiday for us. However, I have spent 5 days of my busy life in book fair shopping center. Nightmares come to me when I realise I have only 3 days left to do that mountain of homework, gosh. Every holiday I have the same problem. In fact, every student. Haha.

I have watched "The Fault In Our Stars". A nice movie, as my friend said "小品". It means the movie is exquisite. Though I didnt cry. Im not used to cry in public hahaha. However, I think the most attractive part of the movie is not that crying part (for me) but the part which Hazel and Augustus spend times together. They are so sweeet. Their infinity are not too sweet nor too romantic but just nice, simple and sweet. So touching :'D I like it very very much.

Ohoh The biggest thing during this ordinary and busy holidayyy. I show youuu.

Da chick from rich country.

A gift from my friend who went to Singapore.

I tell you what, if the chick has given to someone else it's not that cute anymore haha so it's so cute because of me, meee, meeeee huhu.

Back to School Life

29 more hours to go, I have to go back to the busy life.

It's Sem 3~ It's a hard sem definitely. MUET is less than a month, Im so worry about it. I hope I can get something above average? Darrrrr it's hard for me. So sad.

Two weeks holiday ends and I just realised I didnt do anything useful during this two weeks. My holiday life is so...blank.. However I dont think I will feel better when school reopens and I start learning. You know, homework, assignments, peka, reports, exam and Math T. But I do feel happy to go back to school haha. Im gonna see those who can always make me happy (but also those who can always stress me up: teacherssss!)

Ohh ohh you know what, we are planning to go Penang~ yeah~ or Redang? ohh Im confused. I wish we can really make it. Anyone who has good suggestions about the Penang trip please do tell me. Let's plan a great holiday!!

Going back to the school life is not so bad actually with those guys.